if I just....

I have been thinking as the year started about how we are pushed to feel discontent.  It is what advertising banks on, and there is often the sense of dissatisfaction that you haven't quite got what the other people have.

'If I just had that extension on the house our lives would be easier'
'If I just worked more our money would be okay'
'If I just was ten kilos lighter I would be happier'
'If I just had well behaved children it would be easier'
'If I was just in a different job I would be more fulfilled'
'If I was just a better cook, photographer, craft head my blog would be more interesting'
'If I just....'

I have to snap out of the 'if-I-justs' and either be content with where we are, or be thankful for the hard work.  You don't remember things that are easy.  You remember the hard stuff that got amazing results.  Which is why I think you have to tell your birth story to as many people as will listen (not that I am going to tell my birth stories here..yet.  I'll wait til we know each other better - okay?).

As I have started work again I realised that having a few years experience is a blessing, and hard won knowledge is respected.  So from having the wobblies about starting work again a couple of weeks ago to enjoying working with the kids has been a mind shift.  Lots of thinking and praying and a positive 'tude has helped.

Last week at the girl's school a boy was knocked down by an out of control car.  He was just walking out of school, minding his own business, and now he is in hospital with multiple injuries with a long recovery ahead.  It could have been any kid at the school.

I will not be discontent or dissatisfied.

If I could just remember that.